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Monday, August 28, 2006

Stop that Clogging!

Evieincoat1This is a new tune called "Paraclete." It's posted here at the music site with Quicktime.  Or...   You can download it at Garageband.com. 

Be sure to check whether clogging is allowed at your desk.

It's played in Double-Drop C tuning, capoed on the fourth fret (in E), with a wee bit of mandolin thrown in for good measure.

The Spirit of God is often refered to metaphorically as fire, breath, and that which convinces us of the truth, thus the three folds in the song.  I am just glad I finally got to use the word obfuscate in a song.

Paraclete
i need fire, to be inspired
i am overwhelmed, yes and I am tired
to do the tasks of day to day
i've exhausted all the platitudes
the ones you gave to me
i need fire

i need truth, for i am a liar
easily convince myself to obfuscate
desires that come from God, i do not trust
i will get just what i want
instead of what i must
i need truth
i need fire

i need breath to fill my lungs
i'm winded from the consequence
of all that's come undone
clear my head, feed my legs
oxygen and spirit
wake me from the dead
i need breath
i need truth
i need fire


Friday, August 25, 2006

Even Now

180pxkisssoloalbumsI owned every KISS album.  All my friends listened to them and so I did as well, sort of a neighborhood requirement, a fascination with their brand of theater rock and roll.  I also had all of Barry Manilow's records.  For those of you who know me, this may explain a lot.

I started playing the piano when I was seven years old and stopped when I was eleven.  During those years, Barry Manilow was my piano god.  His melancholy songs ended up being a comfort during my parents divorce.  I remember wishing that Barry would call me to his deathbed and ask me to take over for him, carry on his legacy.  Not yet seeing him live in concert is one of the few regrets I live with.

Barry_1I remember reading a bio of my favorite KISS member, Ace Frehley.  Age, place of birth, favorite food, and then it said, "Religion: Baptist."  Ah-ha!  See.  He's a Christian.  I knew it.  I raced to my 5th grade teacher the next day, the one who pulled me aside before recess to inform me that KISS actually stood for "Kids In Satan's Service."  I presented proof that I would be okay.  The teen bio was as good as a public profession of faith.  I'm sure she wasn't reassured.

When we were cueing up Kiss, Queen, Blue Oyster Cult in the neighborhood, I don't recall if I kept my Manilow interests a secret from my friends or not.

Gene Simmons has a new TV show called Family Jewels.  I'm hooked, fascinated by how a man with a such an apparent hedonistic lifestyle is now raising teenagers, which I'm sure creates some weird tensions for him, thus the crux of the show.  Just how much of his Demon character was an act?  Does he have any regrets?  What is his understanding of ethical formation?  Now this is entertainment.


Sunday, August 20, 2006

First Day of School

Warning!  The following post is about my child's first day of school and is written with filtering parent goggles, the kind that make you think mundane, run-of-the-mill stories about your kids are interesting.  Proceed at risk of boredom.

Dsc01505 Noah had his first day of school today.  This was no big deal for our little gregarious superhero.  But for Mom and Dad it was kind of a big deal.  This is only Pre-K, but it still involved the walk to school (only two blocks from our house) and leaving him with a real-live educator in a real-live class room.  So we were excited and slightly freaked out.  As you can see, we took pictures, apparently like very other parent alive.  Shawnee has a center for Kindergarten and Pre-K only, so all the first-timers were flocking around with cam-corders and such.

Dsc01506 Noah found his locker, put up his Spiderman backpack, greeted his teachers, and got all settled in his classroom.  Karen realizes she forgot his "transportation sticker," the one they stick on his back that gets him placed on the right van back to the daycare at the end of the day.  She goes into a mini-panic, and races back home to get it.  I joke with her as she's leaving, "You're the second worst mother in the world!" an inside joke with our friends Kristen and Phil, Kristen professing always that she is the worst Mother in the world.  No sooner is she out the door that Mrs. Rhodes tells me Noah doesn't need the sticker now that he has his plastic wrist band on.  I tell the teacher, "It's alright, Karen probably needs this walk of shame to work out the tension created by all the guilt Working-Mothers feel 24/7.  It will be cathartic for her."

Dsc01508 On our walk home we talk.  I find some subtle attitudes creeping in, attitudes that in the past I was critical of in other parents, you know, back before I had kids and thought I knew how to raise them.  One had to do with concern for who your child is playing with.  As a youth minister, I know that peer relationships are everything, particularly when they begin to reach pre-teen years.  But hey!  You can never start too soon, right?  You never know which friendships are going to stick to these kids.  I notice that Noah immediately latches on to Cody, a boy he knows him from DayCare.  Let's just say that Cody is not the sharpest tool in the shed, as far as my intuition about pre-K intelligence goes.  I glance across the room and wonder which of these kids is going to have an aptitude for global economic policy, medical research or Pulitzer Prize winning journalism.  I guess Cody will have to do for now.

Dsc01510 I kneel down to Noah and I say, "Listen, son.  You see all these kids in your class room?  I want you to be the best listener of all these kids.  I want you to show them how be a good listener.  Okay?"

Dsc01512 Noah looks at me and replies, "Yes, sir."  He knows by my tone this is the response I'm looking for.  He's learning how to play within my system.  And that is what I want him to do, to play within whatever system he finds himself, this in order to succeed, so that he can have a multitude of choices down the road.

And then I remember.  Tim, dude.  It's Pre-K.  Relax.


Saturday, August 19, 2006

Daddy vs. the Good-Looking Rationalist

Superman06Noah returned home to discover his Superman figurine, missing now for about three days, waiting for him on the coffee table.  His mother and I are sitting across the room as he celebrates.

"Where did you find him, Daddy?"

"Well, there's a story I need to tell you,"  Daddy replies.  "Do you want to hear it?"

"Yes.  I want to hear the story, but where did you find him?"

"Well, as it turns out, Superman went away for a while.  Do you remember where Superman is from?"  I begin.

"He's from Krypton." Noah answers, "But where was he lost to?"

"Superman heard on the news that some scientists found pieces of the Planet Krypton out in space and he wanted to fly back there to see if anything was left.  There wasn't much there so he came back to earth.  That's where he went."

"Yes, Daddy, but where was he lost to?"

"I told you, he went away for a few days, but now Superman has returned."

Keep in mind that Noah has yet to see the recent Superman movie.  He has been intrigued enough by the movie trailers and the old 1940s cartoon version I bought for him.  It's at this point that he begins to get frustrated and Mommy, the literature professor, chimes in."

"Tim, tell Noah where you found him.  He wants to know.  You're frustrating him."

"Yes, Daddy, you're frustrating me.  Tell me where Superman was lost."

"I told both of you guys, he left for a few days, went back to his homeland in Krypton and now he's returned."

Noah begins to get visibly frustrated and Karen shoots me the "wife look."  I have to make a decision, do I stand my ground for the power of myth and imagination or do I give into the godless rationalists, the good-looking one giving me the evil eye and the the other burgeoning one rooting around on the floor with his Superman doll.

I look at my wife and whisper, "He's only four.  I'm not giving in this quickly."

"Yes," she whispers back, "but he is the one making the distinction between your story and what really happened.  He's accepted your story, now he wants the truth.  Are you going to deny him?"

"I told you guys the truth!" winking at Karen, knowing full well I mean the mythological truth of the Superman saga.

"Perhaps," the good-looking evil rationalist replies, "you told him the truth, but Noah would now like the facts."

"Yes, Daddy!  Give me the facts.  I want the facts."

Noah_in_no_706_044 I pause.  I look at him, then at her.  Noah, I believe for the first time ever, senses an epistemological alliance with his mother.  I think about it.  They stare me down.

"Alright, Noah," I ask under duress, "Is this toy the real Superman?"

"No Daddy, he's a pretend Superman."

"That's right.  The real Superman did indeed leave earth for a while to visit the Planet Krypton and then he came back.  That is true.  This Superman, which is only pretend (long pause) was behind that pillow on the chair."

Mommy and Noah cheer as if they have won the war.

But Daddy retorts, "And that pillow right there?  You see it?  Guess what the name of that pillow is?"

Mommy rolls her eyes and says, "The Planet Krypton?"

"Exactly."


Friday, July 14, 2006

The "Just-Tim" Me Thinking About the "Tim-Karen-Noah" Me.

Karen and Noah are leaving for ten days.  They are heading down to Baton Rouge to be pampered by her folks.

My anxiety goes up when I'm away from Noah.  And I am away from him a great deal.  I don't want to screw this parenting thing up.  I'm new to it, so I'm always trying to gage what is okay and such.  I think absence is a good thing.  It allows us to get some perspective on our relationships.  Karen and I have always had some time apart, nearly every year, in our fourteen years of marriage.  It always helps us reaffirm the value of our friendship.  I'm quite sure Noah doesn't re-evaluate his relationship to me when he's away.  I hope not, that would mean he ended up as weird as I am, and I'm hoping for something a little less intense in him, or perhaps a different intensity.

I've watched people incorporate cell phones into their lives, adults and teenagers alike.  Some of it is comical.  I walked down an airport corridor as this twenty something woman I was with talked to her friend back home every few gates or so, updating her as to her status since the last they talked a few minutes previous.  I chuckled and told her it wasn't a phone she was using, it was a walkie-talkie.  I shouldn't have said that, she asked me what a "walkie-talkie" was.  God!  When did I get that old?

Kahlil Gibran has this famous poem used in marriage ceremonies about the two in marriage like strings on a lute.  Played together, with intention, it makes a beautiful sound.  But strings still have a sound of their own.  We have our separate ways to find.  Having some mystery in our relationships allows us to develop a sense of the self.   The only way we can prevent ourselves from doing un-needed damage to each other is if we can get some healthy perspective on ourselves.  Step away from the painting for a while.  I think maybe I'm getting tripped up in too many metaphors.

On these trips away, I usually let the house go.  I'll root around, leave dishes out, drop clothes on the floor and then, the day before Karen returns get the house in tip-top shape.  I think this time, I will try to do the opposite, keep up the house.  I may even get to a few honey-dos.  The "just-Tim" me reflecting productively on the "Tim-Karen-Noah" me that is kickin' it back in Baton Rouge.



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